On Being An Idiot....

So you know how sometimes you really want something, and you convince yourself over and over again that it's all working out the way you want it to, and then someone (or multiple someones) interfere and tell you it couldn't possibly happen? When I was in England, I really really wanted something, and was 100% convinced that if I was patient I'd get it in the end. Then the skeptics came around, and convinced me that I was wasting my time. Begrudgingly, I tried to forget about it. However, I was never wholeheartedly into the idea of giving up. Obviously if you're heart isn't into it, either for or against, you can't fully commit yourself.

Turns out I was given pretty shit advice, some of it from people with questionable motives. It's kind of made me second guess who I can really trust. Some people were clearly trying to manipulate me, which is in itself a bit appauling, and others were likely genuinely unaware. Overall, its taught me that I should just trust my own intuition, and sod what everyone else says. As it stands, I wasn't too far off the mark to begin with, and I could have very nearly made some horrendous mistakes. Luckily for me, I'm smarter than that, and I stuck to my guns, despite wavering slightly under the direction of other people's advice.

I won't make the same mistakes again, which is the silver lining to the whole experience. That, and the fact that I didn't slip far enough into making things irreversible.

Anyways, I've likely blabbed entirely too much, as per usual. I'm off to put on my game face.

Cheers